Monday, December 2, 2013

The post about missing my furry boy, getting discharged from physio and admitting I'm sick

Baby and her best bud Finn this past summer.

  • Thank you all for your outpouring of support and condolences in regards to Finn's passing.  It has definitely been a tough weekend at our house. And I can't help but feel angry and robbed. I don't know who to direct my anger towards. Just over a week ago, I had what I thought was a healthy dog. Never sick a day in his life. Today he is in a freezer. It's a very hard pill to swallow for sure. Especially when my son asks me why this happened.  He's missing his best friend and doesn't understand why he was taken from us so quickly.  I have no answers.
  • The weekend was spent reflecting on Finn's life and trying to keep occupied. Distracting Julien was easier than distracting myself. On Saturday we packed up all of Finn's things and brought them to our local animal shelter.  I am not getting another dog...ever! I say that now, but who knows how we'll feel after our pain has lessened. If I ever do get another dog though, I am getting a shelter dog. 
  • My little cat Baby is missing Finn. They were pretty tight. They slept beside each other and hung out in the back yard together a lot. She also ate his food before he would eat. She's wandering around the house crying and looking for him. 

An awesome Saturday morning run with my gal Tanya!

  • Enough of the sad talk. Moving right along. I had a much needed distraction with Tanya Saturday morning. We ran along the Rail Trail by the Running Room. It's been a long time since I ran out of the Running Room. Tanya's been a bit rusty with the running of late, so we totally motivated each other to get out and getter done! Considering we both had a running hiatus for sometime, we did pretty decent with an admirable pace if you ask me. 
  • Although Friday was truly a Black Friday for my family, there was one good thing that happened. I was discharged from physio. I have been going to physio for 10 months. I initially went for a hamstring injury that I got while training for my first half marathon, then I had a lower back issue, then I had my foot issues, then the broken ankle. I was Graham's longest patient. 
  • Running definitely reeks havoc with your body. I am convinced that if it wasn't for Graham and Highland Physio, I wouldn't be pain free right now. This is the first time in ten  months that I do not feel pain anywhere on my body.  When I run, it's almost like I am a new runner all over again. No aches, no pains. I also know that as my mileage builds, I'll be back in physio. It's just bound to happen. But Graham keeps me running so for that I am eternally grateful. Because I need to run.

Some parting shots with Graham (cue the 70's porn music)!
Julien and I at the Burlington Santa Claus Parade. Still can't get a decent
picture with the boy!

  • On Sunday, Julien and I hit our second of three planned Santa Claus parades this year. There was a comedy of errors that occurred on the way to the parade. The most significant being that as soon as we got there, Julien announced he had to use the bathroom because his stomach hurt. I just sat through 15 minutes of traffic to park (and asked him if we needed to stop at the gas station about 15 minutes prior to this) and we were right by where we were meeting friends. I had to head back out in the traffic and go to Chapters so he could use the bathroom. The parade started at 2pm, and I didn't make it back till 2:40.  We were there for about 1/2 an hour and it was done. Short and sweet! It was all good, I needed to get home. I wasn't feeling so good.
  • I think I finally need to admit that I am sick. I am now completely snotty and my head hurts a lot. My voice is also very raspy. I'm gonna call it sexy, but it's only that way because I am sick. I went to bed at 7:30 on Saturday, and 9 pm yesterday. The only problem with that is that I ended up waking up at 2:30 and tossing and turning till 4:30 until I just gave in and got up. My internal clock is completely effed up. 
  • Although I have a head cold, I have still done all my scheduled runs. Sunday's run was my longest post broken ankle run. I ran 7K along my favorite running trail. It was also Finn's favorite place to walk and it was harder to do than I anticipated. I kept picturing him running along the escarpment and I'm sure that I looked unstable to all the other runners who passed me and heard me sobbing. I didn't care. I needed to get it out and you always feel better after a good cry.
  • The next video in the Anniversary Series is called Strippers and being wrong. It's a long one, but makes me laugh.  We do talk about strippers and then get in an argument about directions (typical married couple stuff). And I admit on camera that I was wrong! A huge thing for me to have to admit!


5 comments:

  1. I am sorry to hear about Finn :( take care

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  2. I'm glad that you have other pets, Leigh. I can't imagine if something happened to Keebler, being our only pet. Keebler was attacked by a dog that was over 100 pounds yesterday. Such a visually beautiful dog with a very mean personality. The dog broke loose of his owner, ran across the street, and started to attack Keebler. I risked my own self--getting in between them, with the other huge dog snarling. The own ran over and we pulled her dog away from him. It took 2 of us. Keebler remains intact, but I was scared for him. I learned some valuable lessons about not trusting pretty dogs, and we should have immediately gone in the opposite direction, and things like that. My husband says that the other dog owner is at fault--if her dog has a mean personality, then she should not walk her dog around other dogs. True, but I should protect Keebler better too. I was not as good at it as I should have been. Teen daughter said for me next time to kick the attacking dog. Ugh. To kick someone's dog....At least, what happened to your dog--it was not your fault at all, and your dog lived a very loved life.

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  3. Still sending you cyber hugs and love. And sorry you are sick on top of it. Bet it's lowered resistance from the sadness and crying. :(

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  4. It's natural to feel that way because of your pain. But in time I hope you change your mind. There are so many wonderful dogs that need loving homes, and they can bring you much joy as well. We have never bought a dog, but get them from homes where they're no longer wanted or neglected, or from the animal shelter, and they have always been very loving members of the family.

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  5. I hope you remain pain free!
    Sad running without your buddy Finn.
    And fingers crossed you get over that head cold quickly.

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